it had been 2weeks since i've update.
many things happens within days.
at times dere will be happy moment &
at times disappointment & whatever shyt is
what ii get . many 'adventures' is ahead ii bet ,
its nothing good . ii have many many things to
blog about . just that ii do not know to start
from where . currently at chambers .
mood kinda changed just now . ii do not know whye .
ii kept controlling my tears .
everything just seems to be so wrong .
ii dont even know what am ii doing all this while.
yeas , ii changed . change to someone whom
ii dont even know. ii simply know what ii want in lyfe .
but just dont know whye what am ii doing . what i'm
doing now does not match it at all . ii simply hate to
see hym in this kind of state everyday . but ii know ii
could do nothing except accepting it . & i'm very sure
everything of these happening will stop real soon .
tym is what ii need now . & ii believe everything will
prove it soon !

it had been days since we just contact .
seriously , i miss you alot !
ii know disappointment is what you always get .
this tym round ii dare not ask for your forgiveness .
jus hope you're happy & ii know you will .
always remember , you always stand a place
in my heart . thanks for doing so much .
ii appreciate it . mayb is just that ii do not know how
to cherish you . but if ever , you need a listening ears ,
i'll always be dere . blessing for yous . ]x

at times , ii asked myself . what am ii actually to you?
yeas . ii kept telling you that you changed .
yous are totally different since you're out.
bad & good . th way you treated me is different from
last tym . attitude you gave becoming better .
ii asked myself , what makes you changed .
answer in my mind is always so negative .
question marks is what i always had in my mind .
you told me , you feel that yous treat me very unfairly .
but th way you treat me let me think that , yous are just
wanting to bu chang . let me feel so ... arghs .
ii just dont know how to say . overall , ii know that ,
i'm just nothing to you . ii so feel lyk giving up .
alrights. ii stop here lerhs.(: