whatever !

i didnt know what happen to me today .
i just felt that everything is not right .
i am not myself at all .
i tried to pretend , i tried to put on a smile
like how i always did but i just couldnt do
it today . i seriously can't take it anymoreee.
everything is stressing me up . i've got enough
and i seriously mean enough . i need a break ,
please please leave me alone . i need sometime
for myself to reflect all the things . i can't always
do things to please ppl . i seriously felt terrible .
i'm tired of entertaining . i'm tired of everything .
everyone have their own limit but mine already
over the extend that anytime i could breakdown
so pleaseee . dont push me anymoreee .
i seriously couldnt take it already .
i've been forcing myself all these while .
doing the things i dont like , doing the things i dont
feel like doing at all . simply because i dislike to reject
ppl . i dislike to upset ppl . i dislike to disappoint ppl .
i thot making others happy , i will feel happy myself .
but todayyy i realise i'm not at all . instead i'm pushing
myself too hard to the extend of breaking down .
i hated myself todayyy so so much .
i ignored , i attituded , i did all kinds of things to avoid
the worst . how long moreee can i hold on ? _|_ fml .

school sucks as usual .
kena chase out of class by the china irritating new gonggong !
want step one . keep tick my name say i this i that until i damn
dulan . mayb other days i can tolerate . but definitely not today
because everything is getting on my nerves . i'm not giving in
and and especially to this gay ! -.- fcukoff please .

after school ,
swensen for lunch with mummy and jess they all .
back home , rest awhile and went over to mskay's
place . after having dinner , i went back home .




basically that's my sucky day .

my apology to those ppl that i didnt reply texts and etc .
i just felt a little tired . give me some time and i will reply
when i'm feeling better . i'm sorry .

sorry to those ppl i've attitude , ignore and dragg feeling on .
hope you ppl understand .

well , and thankyou to those ppl that being there .


you make me speechless once again .
i didnt know how to put my trust on you again .
you treated me like a fool again and again .
all your lies , all your excuses .
if you think its fun fooling me ard , continue to do so .
because you'll be the one watching me fall .
i will not askk  and will not say anything at all again .
what you want to do , go ahead . because you made
me realise something . thankyou .
i've been fool , i've been a idiot , i've been a moron by
all your lies . be it if its a white lie or what . i dont give a
damn anymoreee . you've change me . i will and shall
remain silent . (:

signinoff``
♥JCWS