firstly , i seriously had a long sleep .
but its not a good one . i think of many many
things , i dream of scary scene . i thought of many
ppl i've lost . wtf is this ?!

well , last night i really enjoyed myself so much!
thankyouuuuuuuu so much !

actually i've nothing much to update .
met up with my dearestgirl and bff ytd .
chatted quite a little and they both gang up bully me ):
sad sad ! each time whenever sending vip off , i just
felt so sad . i dont want to leave even a sec because
i'm afraid i will took a very long time to see you again
just like 2years back ):

as for you , i dont know how to reply you .
not that i dont want to . i've mix emotions towards you .
i dont know how i really feel , i dont know what i really
want . yes , i'm super pissed ! you're the closest to my
heart yet you're doubting me . wtf is this ?! a relationship
without trust , what's the point of dragging on ?
you know no matter what you do , i will always forgive
you and forget about it . i always treated you as my bestest
friend , my little sister . so , i've never once blame you for
anything . save your apology because it doesnt make a
different at all . sorry can be said easily , what prove is your
actions . i dont wish to say anymore . lastly , you're happy ,
isn't it ?

nk , i dont mean it that way ! i dont know are you thinking
the same way that i'm thinking but definitely , i'm not being
force by you always . my meaning is not that . i enjoyed
all the moment spending with you , i enjoyed everything ,
i enjoyed having such a great friend like you . because
you're just different from the rest . i seriously dont want
to risk it . i want you to be my most most good friend ,
you understand ? i dont care what others say/think about me .
but i care how you think about me .

raining now and raining day brings you back to my mind .
i thot of you before i sleep . and i hate you for everything
and i mean EVERYTHING ! thinking back how sucks
you've treated me and how i always just forgive and forget
makes me feel so so lousy . _|_

that very moment , i told myself , i will be strong and move on .
that very moment , i told myself , never to dwell in it again .
that very moment , i told myself , i'll be independent .
that very moment , i told myself , i'll not ---- --- anyone again .
that very moment , i told myself , i must be happy everyday !

jcws cann make it , i know . (:

alrights . i'll stop here .
going out for dinner with monsterrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr ! hahahahah .

signingoff``
♥JCWS