fml.

the main reason i wanna update now is simply because
i wanna share a compo that written by myself , not that to
show off but to share the best gift in my life (:

this is the topic that i written for my mye .
question : describe the best gift you have ever received .

             The best gift that i ever received is love. Love can be easily said ,
as and when when people feel like it but some people say ' i love you ' not
just for the sake of saying it but say it whole heartedly.

              I recall of one incident that i deeply felt that i was loved by people
and that gave me strength to move on with life. It was 6th February 2009 ,
not long after my grandma's death. I walked and walked but did not know
where to go, i ended up standing in front of a church. My curiosity was so
strong that i walked in and tried to explore the place. I saw a lady who claim
that she was a pastor. We chatted for a little while and i just couldn't stop
crying. When i was about to leave , the lady got up and gave me a hug and
whispered to me ' i love you. '

               For the first time in my whole life , i heard someone tell me she
love me. I felt the great impact in my heart being lifted, I couldn't reallt
describe how i really felt at that point of time but i just felt that the lock in
my heart had been unlocked by these three simple words. At that moment ,
I truly understood the real meaning of love. Love was not about saying or
writing but about the actions that show that you love someone.

              Until now , i still feel that i am a free bird flying in this beautiful sky ,
soaring high because of love. Without love , i may not be who i am today.
With the love of family and friends , i believe i will continue to leave a trail
of broken hearts flying high no matter what obstacles i face in the future.
Therefore , the best gift i ever received is the love of people that makes a
different in my life by making the wrong right.

------the end-----------

today , still okay .
i hope things will slowly disappear .
i can close my eyes to avoid the things i dont want to see
i can shut my ears to avoid the things i dont want to hear.
but i cant close my heart to feel the things i dont want to
feel . sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh !
know what ? everything you say affects me , hurt me .
i hope i didnt saw but it just so happen to appeaar right
infront of my eyes . wtf ?! LMA !

i enjoyed every moment that spend with you !
seriously ! but everything is so not right now .

alrights . nothing much already ! goodnights (:

i'm missing you , i hope you know .

signinoff``
♥JCWS