TIRING !

had a long long day today !
moodswings . mixed emotions ! idk what to say
about today . whatever shitty feeling i've simply sucks !!!

early in the morning rain already . feeling so cold the whole
day ! never late for school and i'm trying to put on my best
smile though i feel like shit inside . i've tried !
i failed my maths test for the 1st time i guess?
fcuk my fcuking life . i became so speechless . i used to get
A1s ! where are those ? idk ! mr goo talked to me after school.
i knew i have already disappointed him . although he still
encourage me and call me to jiayou and dont make him disappointed
but seriously , i lost all the motivations in studies.
motivations where are you ? save me ! ):

after school went slack awhile dhen meet nk at 925 !
saw babyyyyyyyy ! i'm so happy ! very long never see baby
already ! become more big but as cute as ever . (: lalalas.
cab baby back home and off for movieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee !
went to watch oldcow ! quite nice and sweeeeeeeeeet ! hahaha .
after that went huhu and home sweet home !
thanks nk for today ! (:

okay , in the first place i'm forcing myself .
forcing myself to accept all the things that come my way .
forcing myself to do all the things i need not do .


i hope what i heard aren't the truth .
tell me all those are lies ? tell me all the things you say are true.
i dont want to be an idiot covered by your lies.
i'm afraid . i'm scare , i hestitate , i doubt .
and i mean everything you've said .
if that is your past , prove me wrong .
i'm going to pretend nothing is wrong but i couldn't hold it
any longer . dont make me give up , once again . ):

i'll stop here .
confusing life . fml -.-

signinoff``
♥JCWS