being lifted and thrown down again.

now is 1:48am . i couldn't sleep still . ):
yesterday / today is nss yes day .
i felt that it is super boliaos. see the yog ppl
drive pass and shout like crazy for that 2-5min
very meaningful ?! i think i have more
meaningful things to do ! irritating day ! make me
rush like mad ! -.- so everything ended at 6plus .
went over to 4tou to get some things done .
that's my day . i think mskay got a hard time 
waking me up in the morning. my apology ,
i guess i'm just tooo tooo tired . ilovesweetieee (:

some things are really really troubling me.
i couldn't stop thinking about it .
i couldn't forget about it .
i couldn't , i just couldn't .
tell me what should i do ?
what should i do dhen i will not feel the guilt in my heart ?
what should i do so i will not keep thinking its my fault ?
what should i really do ? )': fml.

am i thinking too much ? i hope i am .
was like .......... i feel that ...........
you're confusing me . i'm starting not to understand you
anymore . or i dont understand at all in the first place ?
i felt so affected , really . so so much .
you throw me down and pull me up again .
still , all those words are in my mind .
please dont treat me like a fool.

okay , i saw him today .
and and , we're like total stranger .
what's wrong ? i thought of him so much when he's
not around but when he's standing infront of me
today yet i walked away . i changed or he changed ?
whatever ! can't be bothered .

since this is the case , i dont know how and you dont
know why , there's nothing more i could do either .

i just need some rest and to be alone .

too much things for me to think .

lastly , happy birthday monster ! (:


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♥JCWS