其实 ，你对我很重要

i always wanted to update but something is
always stopping me . my mind , my heart , my
hand and my laziness . -'-

common test week and everything is stressing me.
i dont have time to study at all . almost everyday
working except for today because i know myself
can't take it anymoreeeee .
feeling super moody this afternoon .
many thoughts flowing in my mind .
all the fear , all the pain , all the unhappiness and
i seriously mean everything came back to me .
ppl always hope and awaiting for every tmr .
but i fear for every tmr . hoping that every tmr
dont come fast .fml . what's wrong ? sigh.

i dont know why i'll feel this way .
each day past ,i realised the importances you're
to me getting stronger and deeper. i hated this .
i want to be needed instead myself needing
something/someone . i hated to see that .
i can't helped myself to not feel this way .
我不想告诉你 ，你对我有多重要 。
我不想需要 ，宁愿自己被需要 。
我不想承认 ， 你已经回到原来的地位了。
i dont wish to reply but my heart betray my hand
and my hand betray me . ):

请你不要骗我 ，如果你觉的我有那么好骗 ，
恭喜你 ，没错 ，我承认我傻 ， 我笨 。
就是因为这世界有你这种人所以才会有痛 ，
有伤 。
sometimes , you need millions of lies to cover
that one lie .
stop all your bullshitting ! you know it deep in your
heart , all those are just words. -'-


当我觉得害怕 ，寂寞 ，伤心 ，难过 的时候
你在那里 ？

tmr gonna work . keeping myself busy with work
stop my mind from thinking about anything and i
just love it . going to huhu and prepare to
oinkoink soon ! goodnights .

signingoff``
♥JCWS