home is best (Y)

我没了笑脸 , 怕别人看见 , 一点一点没了知觉 。

this few days , i've been locking myself home .
idkwhy too . i just wish to rot away all my time .
哪里都不想去 ，只想一个人。
自己一个就好 。
一天天重复的生活 ，一天一天忙碌着
一天一天等待着 ，属于我 很简单的快乐
习惯了这样的寂寞 ，习惯了这样的生活
我期待一个人 能够保护我

我期待一个人 能和我分享快乐
我期待一个人 能听我诉说

我期待一个人 能给我一个承诺
让孤单的心 不会再寂寞
所以一直以来我都在期待中。。。

yknow when you're not tired at all ,
and you keep forcing yourself to sleep ,
you will end up realising you'll keep waking up
and look at the time . because you just hope that
time would fly faster . but i just hope that i will
never wake up to look at anytime and sleep as
long as i could or never wake up at all .

okay , this is that reason why i'm awake now .
well , today's paper is ..... idk how to say .
i feel like shit this morning seriously .
i couldn't prevent things not to happen .
i don't know why am i like this today .
it's the first time i really felt this way .
whatever ! for my letter writing for both language ,
i think roughly i did it right with the format and everything .
the essay is what i'm afraid of.
i think i didnt do really well for chinese because at the end
of the paper , i realised i'm spouting rubbish .
and for english , what i'm afraid of is being out of point .
the worst gift and the best gift how could it be disrespect and
respect ?! LOL. silly me . i only stopped writing until the very
last second ! i used to sleep for at least one hour in the past .
what's wrong ?! -.- hais.

so went home after i got my lunch .
i cabbed to 7tou for that childhood horfan .
end up , it finished already . and i'm super
disappointed ): i thot something could make
my day but i realised ,  nothing now . ):
whatever.
i want to study , i dont feel like studying .
i wanna continue rotting , yes , i'm gonna rot.
goodbye .
 
you'll never know how i truly felt .
so don't ever aske . because you'll never know ,
if you're the reason .
signingoff``
♥JCWS