i think i'm just ... okay , jealous .

i'm super sleepy right now now now .
but i still think i should blog before i do any other thing .
i'm afraid that my body will be super weak tmrw .
so i want to do all the things i yet to do right now .

i don't know where i should really start .
so much things is in my mind now .
i hope i owned a switch off button so i could turn my mind
off for few min not to think abt any thing and have peace .

how can i hold on to it ?
how should i hold on to it ?
something that you wouldn't want to lose .
something that you lose with regrets in future .
something that is full of cruelty .
but still goodbye .

小小幸福 ♥♥


对不起 ，不是咪咪残忍 。
你懂不懂那种想要拥有可是却真的每有办法得到的感觉？
你知不知道什么叫心痛 ，什么叫害怕 ？
失去了你 ，是咪咪永远的遗憾 。
不能够保护你 ，是咪咪一辈子的内疚 。
没有人会发现我的世界曾经有你的出现 。
可是咪咪永远都会记得 ， 你带给我的快乐与幸福 ，
谢谢你 ， 小小的幸福 。你是我最珍惜的礼物 。
可是这份礼物 ，我没有办法收下 ，希望你能够了解 。
我想我会很想很想你这颗宝 。原谅咪咪的决定 。
对不起 ， 我爱你 。 


i didn't know how should i describe my feelings in my heart now . 

it's not simple words like ' don't think so much ' or  ' just have to move on ' 

can kill these feelings . words are always easier to be said . but i can't control 

the way i am feeling . 

现在我才发现最悲哀的是我不能面对自己 。

fml . i'm really tired right now . 

i'll try not to think anymoreeeeeee . 

no work tmrw due to some reasons . 

i don't want tmr to come . i wish i could sleep and never wake . 

i'm afraid , i'm scared . 

i'm losing every little comfort . 

losing them all . 

anyway , work simply sucks today . 

i always love to cheat myself . and i always failed to . 

i can't deny and only to admit . 

but i'm not freaking gonna care at all (:

again , this is just me . 

signingoff``

♥JCWS