somehow , i've fallen for .

is this the destiny that meant to be ?
is all these the fate ?
tell me it isn't . tell me every single thing is
within our own bare hands .
tell me i do have a choice .
tell me i've the right to choose .

somehow , you had became someone to me .
from nobody to somebody .
i thot it could be something . but i'm going through
this pain once more . all along , i wanted to tell you ,
you're the one i'm refering to . the one i got jealous
without myself knowing why . the one that i felt there
is a distance btw us . but now , i guess , it's pointless .
do as you wish . you're a liar . and i hate you .
but i can't deny , every lil thing that you do , make me
fall for you a little more each time .

i know i'm not suppose to .
but i just did . tell me how ?

i've yet to settle many other stuffs .
i just need more time ):
i need more peace ):
i need to be alone ):
i need to reflect ):
i need to think back what is happening ):
i need to , i just need to .

yes , i'm having a super hard time .
no one could ever understand . if you say you could it
just BULLSHITS . so please fucking get out and stfu
if you can never understand simply because you're not me.

i've been thinking and tear-ing for the whole fucking day .
with no one noticing the pain in me .
i lied . saying i just woke up therefore my eyes is swollen .
the fact that i cried but i hide it simply because i hated others
to see my weakness , even if i die in my room tonight ,
nobody knows , nobody cares .

signingoff``
♥JCWS