i don't know how should i pull through later )':

i hate it when i'm caring too much for things that don't
f- concern me at all .
especially those lil comments ; lil words that will affect me --
like the whole freaking day . i don't want to think but
i can't help it because it's appearing and appearing in my
brain ; my mind ; my heart .
i don't understand , i really don't .
does all these makes you feel better ?
by spoiling my day makes you happier ?
is that necessary for you to talk about it ?
you're not me and you didn't know how much it's affecting me .
every single moment , no need your words being heard ,
could let me think of it . just by my surroundings .
things had come to a point that ....
i just don't know how to say anymoreeeee .
because you had left me speechless .

okay , today is a bad bad day ):
when you least expect something , it would come like
nobody's business ! -'-
naughty stomach and playful cough had shot me down
the whole fucking day so many times .
it's my bad for not wearing my bullet vest )':
and what i can do is to bear with such miserable life !
left school early and head back home after lunch .
slept for the whole afternoon .
went out a little while with my pain .
feeling a lil weirdddddddddddddddddddddddd .
i dont know why .

whatever , i'm gonna sleep soon .
long day tmrw . i bet it will not be a good one .

he should know i will not .
he should know , by my personality .
even if i thought of it , i will not .

signingoff``
♥JCWS