Too often , the only escape is sleep .

It's how much I thought I had numb the pain but I just
realized , it's been hurting me a little more each time .
Went to watch , L.O.V.E , with my boy . It's nice and
it didn't disappoint me at all but left me with plenty of
thoughts . I don't wanna think about it but it just flew
back to me . 2years already , and i hate myself still dwelling
in it . I said I'll never forget , you were once my happiness .
The reason that I hang on , My strength that I stand tall and
now , My greatest regret . So much IF(s) in my mind floating !
And i wonder , how and what will things be if the choice
wasn't made . You never fail to bring tears to my eyes , till now .
You are also the reason of my smile every single day . You made
me strong to who I am today . And i'm thankful , you were once
my everything . When the world stops , you're the only one that
stood next to me and protect me . you're the only one that love me ,
only one that put that natural smile on my face . only one that can
give me comfort without saying anything . And also the assurance
and security that no one can give . Let me have you in my dream
tonight . Let me have it all once tonight . One last cry , One last kiss .

The worst kind of pain is when I'm smiling just to stop the tears from
falling . The deepest scars were the ones that I never wanna forget .
I hate to be forced . I still remember how hard I had pull through and
how much time I wasted just to move on . fucks to this cruel world .
fucks to the timing . Insomnia tonight again .

我有权利情绪化 ，我不一定要坚强 。
有些事情不能伪装 。
我懂失去的悲伤 ，也懂进退的挣扎 。
想起过去都是失望 ，何必要放不下 ？
认清了真心话 ，我就放的下 。
我要一步一步往上爬 。
等待生活中所谓的阳光 。
钟玮珊 ，你一定可以 ！！！！！！

Goodnights world ! I'll be dreaming of lil happiness .

signingoff``
♥JCWS