ii hav decided to come back & post ... & osho decided not to abandon my blog.
& yeas. no matter wadd ii wont abandon it aniimore liaos. (: but still ...
my mood iish still nort right ... sighs . ii dunno wadd iish going on now . & ii really
hen xiang fang qi lerrhs . )x sighs . pls tel mii wadd ii shud do ha0 marrhs?
ii am sho confuse now . ii dunno wadd shud ii choose . it seems tat wadd ii do
iish owaes wrong . & ii felt sho extra sometyms . & if many things without mii ...
ii think tat everything will be perfect & if things be perfect , everybody around
mii will be happy . ii jus wanns dem to be happy & ii will be content . iish tat sho
difficult?
if onii ii neberr step into tat place things wont become lidat .
if onii ii dunno her things wont be lidat .
if onii ii dunn appear in tis world things wont be lidat .
if onii ii disappear everything will be fine . wont it be?
sighs . kinda hav a wish now . )'x ii guess ... nobody will ever understands .

ii tried to stop thinking bout th words yous say . but ...
ii jus carnt 4get ... & yeas . yous did apologise to mii ...
but somethings ... not a sorry jiu canns 4get derrhs .
its hard 4 mii to pretend tat nthg happens . & its hard 4 mii to face yous too .
4 th tym being ... probably ii dunn wish to see yous . but wadd canns ii do?
still ... ii carnt do aniithing . ii carnt jus say to yous ...
'ii dunn wish to see yous canns yous dunn come ' cann ii?
but .. even if ii canns ii osho wont say derrhs . sho no worries.
ii wont hurt yous as hurting yous to mii iish lyk hurting myself.
ppl told mii ... ii dunno yous well enuf . perhaps ... ii'm waiting .
waiting 4 th day tat how ppl describe yous to mii ... its not tat
ii dunn believe wadd those ppl tat tells mii those things ... its jus tat ...
ii wanted to see it wid my own eyes & see if it iish true . at tat point of tym ...
probably ... ii dhen will believe barrhs . 4 th tym being ... ii wont say aniithing .
but jus hope tat yous wont say aniithing to mii aniimore .
th scar yous left iish deep enuf . & not a sorry or aniithing cann meant it .
no point saying sorry now or wadd ... cos it doesn't mean aniithing to mii now.

ii used to say ... ii'm a strong girl & big girls dunn cry ....
but think back now ... its all lies ... each & everyday ...
ii dunno wadd will happens . & still tears roll down ... )x
jus hope tat my wish come true naturally ...& its a secret btw myself (:

&&& ii dunn lyk aniione to comment mii or waddeva !
yous ar th 1st one uhs . sho please watch your word yeas.
no mood to blog aniimore . will update soon derrhs !

please take mii away & disappear in my lalaland :D
& sho ... ii'll be content (:

takkiirrees!
signinoff``
miissyangeLYNN