okays now ... ii osho dunno how to describe my feelings .
somehow ; ii dunno whye . everywhere ii go ... ii will still see yous dere.
& yet ... wanted mii to pretend nthg happens which ii know ii couldn't .
ii'm sorry . perhaps . give mii more tym & ii canns over come it .
after all ... ii still regards yous as part of my gans ! (:

ii know tat we had drift real far away . you did ask mii ... & yeas ii said ...
but ii really dunno wadd else canns ii do?
perhaps now ... ii dunn even stand a place in ur harrtt ...
wo fangqi lerrhs . ii'm sorry . but still ... ii will still be dere wheneva yous
needs mii ... & jus msg mii alrights . fates hold over everything (:

somehow ... ii jus dunno how to tel yous .
ii dunn wanns gives yous wrong signal & waddeva ...
sometyms ... ii feel sho irritated . but still ii dunno how to tel yous.
ii dunn wanns hurts yous & th point of tym ....ii'm sho afraid tat
yous get wrong signal ... cos it iish impossible 4 mii & yous . (x

now ... ii jus wanns my usual self to be back &
hope tats nthg happens . )x ii really really sho miss trainings )x
ii wanns to go back ! sighs . but somehow ... its stoppong mii ...
ii dunno when dhen ii canns go back ! but ii hope its reall soon !
ii jus needs th doc permission ! sighs :/

ii did hav some feelings 4 yous but ... ii guess ...
we're not mend to be together . sho manny tests iish infront .
& sho manny ppl iish blocking our ways . but neberrmiinds.
lets fates decide (: IILOVESYOUS !


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