Currently at the wake toning with
korkor to guard the place . After
a long day with tons of tears , I
felt real tired . I couldn't express
how I am feeling right now but just
don't feel good ... But at least it is
better than yesterday. This really is
a big impact to me . I can't stop thinking
of my ah Ma and I will just start crying.
I spoke to her and hoping there's a reply
but to my disappointment I got nothing in
return . Granny , I just want a simple
sentence from you telling me that you're
fine and misses me . Why ain't you replying
me ?! Do you know that I miss you alot ?
I don't want to let you go , someday I know
fate will lead you back to me . This is one
thing that I can deny it's not goodbye.
I know it's not goodbye , it just the matter of
time , ah Ma , please wait for me ):
no matter how long , 10 years ; 20 years or even
50years you will wait de dui mah? Though time
is not on our side , there will be no tears to cry .
This I promise you , I will be strong and move on
remembering you by heart and living a life you would
like me to have . Whisper into my ears those few
words that give me strength to move on , will you?
Seeing ahgong so upset my heart just feel many little
needles poking in every single sec.
It upset me moree to see tears roll down their
cheeks . Sigh . Still , I feel so lost .
I spoke to ahma I've got no reply .
I sing to her hoping her to say "hen Hao ting "
still no reply . I told her I tonight will
accompany her hoping her to say "I love to be
accompanied by you " but still I hear nothing .
Hais . I wish all these is just a dream , I wish
this is the end of the nightmares . I want an end
to all these shit that is happening .
How many moree ppl I've to lose through out my
life ? I can't afford to lose any of them anymoree.
God , please don't take them away from me as days
goes by ):
Well , just wanna thanks those ppl who encourage me ,
console me and give me a simple hug and tell me to be
strong .
Thankyou bff for coming down . Though the time is short ,
but I am glad that you're here for me .
Thankyou xingan for Accompanying me home and
etc . Thanks for being there when I need you .
I love my xingan !
Thankyou ypl for all your encouragement and many
more . What you said makes me reflect and that
really make me stronger . Thankyou for being there
allvthe time when I need you .
Thankyou idiot ! Though you claim that you didn't
know how to an wei me , but being there is just
enough . Hope you're getting better .
Thankyou nek . Thankyou for all those words .
You will definitely won the best schoolmate award
this year . Just this year , dint fly ah !
Ahhhhhhh! I have still got many thankyou to many
ppl but it will not end if I continue .
Well , I will stop here !
Xiexie ni men ! (((:
Signingoff"
Mina !
I know I will be strong
I just love granny so Much !
I miss her to the max !
I wanna see her soon ):
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