i felt so . . .

why am i feeling this way ?

know why do i hestitate ?
it's all because . . .

i'm having 3days holiday now .
nothing much actually . life is as boring as ever .
many things is really troubling me .
i seriously dont know what the fcuk i've been doing this
few days . everything is just like a dream ,
a bad dream which i never ever wanted .
yes , for the first time in my life i feel like shit .
a bin with unwanted rubbish fills me .
fffffffffffffffffmmmmmmmmmmmmmlllllllllllllllllllllll ~

idk if you still do come to my blog .
i've got so many things to tell you . but whenever you ask ,
my mind turn blank . i wanna msg you but something is stopping
me . i'm afraid of the outcome yknow ?
all the best for tmrw . just want you to know ,
you're someone i dont wanna lose because you're someone
great to me ! once again , thankyou & i'm sorry .
sorry for not being the perfect one for you . sorry for bringing
pain to you . sorry for causing so much things .
thankyou for always being there in the past . thankyou for your
listening ears . thankyou for everything .
andand lastly , i miss all the moments we once had together .
my apology .

i dont wish this is the way we communicate as well .
you've said all those words , what more could i say ?
what more could i do ? i dont want to hold you back
not because you're not impt but blaming myself for bringing
so much disappointment to you . if you think it doesn't matter
to you , i've got nothing to say . but everything matters to me !
what is fate ? fate is the decision we choose to make .
we create our own fate ! 

signingoff``
♥JCWS