being forced .

when i wsas walking home in the rain alone ,
i thought of alot of stuffs . good and bad ,
sweet and bitter . every single bits of my 16years' life .

i thought of all the hardships i've been through all alone .
yes , i've many ppl around me claims that they care .
but how many will be there to pull me up when i am falling apart ?
how many will be my light when darkness fills me ?
how many ppl around me love me for who i am , treat me sincerely ,
care for me whole-heartedly ? how many willing to sacrifice ?
well , idk .

for now , i've a impt decision to make .
it's either rejoice or regret .
by tonight , a decision will be made .
whatever the outcome is , i knew i would be force to do so .
things is always not within my control .
forgive me lil .

true ? to me , its very very true .
now , it's not the time for me to have any games .
i wanted to believe all the things you've said .
i wanted to . but , you failed me .

new blog song : if i open up my heart to you .

signingoff``
♥JCWS