i think i love today , i think i hate today :/

first of all , i want to start my update with this ....

Middle finger to:

• The jerks who broke my heart.
• The bitches who talked shit behind my back.
• The unworthy so called friends who betrayed my trust.
• The ones who gave up and just found it easier to walk away.
• The heartless people who left without a word of reason.
• The assholes who give off mixed signals just to lead me on.
• The users who just need me when they want something.
• The hit it and quit it douche bags.

And mainly, the ones who purposely made me cry and watched me fall.

khy ! see this ? :D you're definitely one of them ! hahaa . kidding uh ! 

let's start about my day first . 

the moment when i woke up , i felt so aimless . 

i don't feel like doing anything , just feel like rotting . 

but i forced myself to go to work because i can't stand fuckface . 

but when i'm on my way to work i suddenly turned happy .

i ordered myself , not to allow anything to affect me at all . 

and indeed , nothing affected me and for that , i love today . 

went to eat pizzahut with khy , lep and louis . 

so so full but my heart was not with me , i dont know why . 

felt freaking cold just now and i hope for a hug at that point of time . 

you know , only at my weakest moment , i need someone . 

i always thought i'm strong enough to handle every single shit . 

but i denied i actually needed someone to hold me tight prevent me from 

falling . teach me how and tell me why . 

i created this big mess . 

i created all my pain and sufferings . 

i created my fuck up world with my own bare hands . 

once , i told myself , i wouldn't regret for every single shit that i've done . 

now , it would still be same . i never once regret for the pile of shit 

i've created . but i regretted allowing unnecessary stuffs to happen in my life . 

whatever it is , i'm not gonna think anymore . 

the more i think , the more i'll emo and i don't want to emo at all ! :S

oh ya , today seming last day of work and he's going back to china for a month 

i think . i can't imagine after today i can't see him anymore . by the time he's 

back , i already left schenker . so sad leh . he so nice and cute la . shy seming !

laughs . took few photos with him ! no more funny stuffs done by him anymoreee ! 

that's all for today . 

i need to relax my eyes . 

will update if i couldnt sleep later on again . 

I still can fight as long as the wrong feels right ♥

signingoff``
♥JCWS