only at my weakest .

为什么当我最需要人的时候 ，想起的还是你和我的回忆 ？
at my weakest moment , i hope for somebody .
at my weakest moment , i don't want to be notice .
yknow , many stuffs reminds me of you .
many many little things and i wonder why .
teach me , show me , clear my doubts .
everybody needs someone .

work is super tiring .
i wanted to quit . but it just seems so difficult .
khy can quit so easily and why can't i ?
life is so unfair and i hated it . fml .

weaker and weaker .
strengthless to more strengthless .
i'm seeing all it and it scares me .
numbness and etc . i hope i got better .
forcing myself with herb soup and alcohol at night .
hot stuffs and etc . i want my healthy body .

if i say i'm okay , i lied .
舍不得的东西有很多 。
可是时间就是回不去了。
我想 ，过去让它过去
可是 ， 我该如何勇敢的面对呢 ？
来不及 ，从头再来 。
我会学习 ，不会像以前那么傻 ，
会比以前聪明一点点 。

every little thing is affecting me .
i tried to ignore sometimes , but i can't control my
eyes and hears sometimes . i wish to leave .
i don't want to be affected by unnecessary stuffs like this . 
and definitely , i don't like it .
somethings are hard to say .
everything may seems perfect now .
but who knows , the next moment ,
everything turn upside down ?
we shall see .

okay , my mind got tired .
i need to sleep now . goodnight world .

will our heart beat as one tonight ?



signingoff``
♥JCWS