My heart is not with me):

I'm dying in my own emotions):
My heart seems to be so far away
From me. I don't know why I just
Simply can't do things well . I
Seriously don't fcuking know what
The fcuk am I thinking at all !
Why am I feeling so sucks?
I tried my best to ignore and told
Myself I can't be affected by it
At all but everything is affecting
Me so much ! I couldn't sleep well
At night . And things is just troublings
Me ! I hate waking up in the middle of
The night to see the darkness! I hate
To know that it is a nightmare !
Because everything scares me): last night,
I am seriously having a real bad night
And for the first time I'm feeling so terrible
And scare):

School is still as sucks as Tuesday!
At times I'm really happy but some
Time some fcukers just simply spoil
My mood ! About class , I just don't
Understand what the fcuk teacher is
Teaching ! I have finally complete
Half of my homework just now but I
Can't deny that I'm forcing my self
So hard . I really really had a hard
Time ! And and I didn't know how to
Complete the other half anymoree !):

Worst come to worst ,
Most of my weekend is gonna be
Burn ): sighs . What to do?!

Yesterday ms justyna came to see
Me . Had a great chat with taoeh
And my lovely po ! But it's real
Sad to say she's gonna leave us
And a new po will come and take
Over her which I seriously don't
Want that to happen but it is gonna
Happen next week): hen Shang xin !


See ! Everything is going so wrong
But I am seriously trying to think
It more positively but it still affects
Me like how it usually do. Hais !
What the fcuk exactly I should do?!
I couldn't express how I felt right
Now):

Ypl !
Imissyou and I need you right now):

Tjy !
As I say , I still love and care
For you like how I always do(:

Kxt !
I didn't bully you okay !
You bullied me ):

Alrights ! Wo xi Wang ming tian
Hui gen hao !


Signingoff''
Mina !


I believe I will be much
More happy den before even ,
Without him . Because I don't
Care and I don't need . I just
Love the way I'm now (:
My life would still filled with
My own laughters perhaps ,
Even more.


Seeing others shed tears
Causes the guilt in my
Heart to grow ....