这一刻 ，清还给我自由。

不管开不开心 ，不管快不快乐 ，我脸上的笑容不曾消失过。
他们都说 ：‘每一次看到我 ，我都在笑’
可是，他们懂每一个笑容背后的挣扎有多苦 ，多难熬吗？


signingoff``
♥JCWS

The pillar that make me strong .

Well spent saturday .
Though it's really tiring .
I'm phyiscally , mentally , emotionally dead .
And think of working later , I really feel like banging the wall and die !
And think of school on monday , I wish I'm dead now .
I'm not prepared , not prepared . I don't know where to start and don't
even know what to do . It's like getting lost in a jungle and no matter how
hard I tried , still couldn't figure the way out . Totally helpless . 


Sometimes , people tends to choose the easy way rather than working hard . 
Easy way = Nobody . If you wanna be somebody , definitely have to work 
hard to achieve . So , Jerlin Reianna Cheong , jiayou ba ~ ! And I know right 
from the beginning , IF I WANT , I CAN . hmmm , 4 more months to O's ! 
Battle starts on monday ! :D And before I start , I must love ! So I kept
reminding myself , ILOVETOSTUDY ! haha ! me lame , i know .

Oh ya ! Regarding about the thingy ' Principal on stomp '
It's like super ridiculous la ! I just can't stand those childish immature teenagers .
Or should I say little children ? What goes around , comes around .
And I always believe that humans should always remember the part and parcel
of life that makes them become who they are today .

Behind every faces , there are a story to tell .
Some appear happy , But who knows the sorrows behind every smile they put on .
That's why , Do not judge !

ok , I'll end here ! Slave's bed is calling me over . Goodnights .

signingoff``
♥JCWS

Just because you trying to tell me I CAN'T , I prove you WRONG !

This going to be a very short update .
My eyes is half open by now . Hearing slave's snore while updating ,
It's obvious that the bed is seducing me over ASAP !

Ok . Slave boy's lappy can't type in chinese and ME NO HAPPY !
So much thoughts I wanna rant .

Do you people know the feeling when someone say YOU CAN'T ?
Be it directly or indirectly ! Its just like being sentence to death .
Only a few people matters in my life . I always feel that what others
say or think don't matter to me . Yes , They don't matter . But as long
as it's a thing to do with ' look down on me ' IT MATTERS !
All I wish to say is :
 " FUCK YOU ! WATCH ME AS I BREAK EACH OBSTACLES " 
Know what ?! 
I'll definitely fight all my battles on my knees , and i'll be winning everytime . 
It's nothing to do with thinking too highly of myself . 
But , Just because of those freaking blind eyes that look down on people like
me , I'm working extra hard to prove those people wrong ! 


For every hope that I lifted up high , You always thrown me hard back to the 
ground . And this time , I'm not trying , not waiting , not hoping , again .
KTHXBYE !

Signingoff``
♥JCWS

只要有决心 , 就一定能坚持到最后 !

First of all , WELCOME MY BANGBANGS !
ok .... it's been freaking long since I last updated my this long forgotten rotten diary .
HAHA ! I wonder if there's any stalker still stalking my blog every now and then .
But I know my bestf is definitely one of them , because she's my forever stalker la !

Well ... Been very busy though it's holidays now ! Who doesn't wanna enjoy ?!
Work is not fun and definitely super tiring cannnnnnnnnn ! If I have a choice I
also want to sleep all day and party all night ! But big girl me now have to prioritize
What HAVE to be done and What NEED to be done !

Since young . I have always been procrastinating !
Later this , Later that .
Next day this , Next week that .
Leaving everything for every tomorrow but my tomorrow never comes .
I'd learnt a life lesson , by losing granny . But , I can't deny ....
I STILL PROCRASTINATE !

Just a blink of eyes , O level is drawing near .
And I've yet to start any shit . Seriously ... Fuckmyself !
I'm fucking waiting for the day when I take my results with all my regrets
and breakdown like a bitch . It's either ALL or NOTHING , isn't it ?
It's either a WELL SPENT year or a WASTED year , isn't it ?

Whatever it is , I'm gonna work and enjoy my last week of holidays .
I shall not make any promises to myself , in case I can't even deliver a shit .
i'm forever those walk one step see one step type.
Because I always tell myself " Do not worry for tmr , For tmr will worry
about itself "

Problems come , Problems go .
But one thing for sure , I know I'm strong enough .
No matter Rains or Storms , I'm not easily defeated .


Signingoff``
♥JCWS

Life is a beautiful struggle

Firstly , welcome my new baby to my cosy princess palace ! 

lalalas ! The scene how I got this keep flashing in my mind !

so funny laaaaa ! hahahaha ! This weekend seriously only a 

word to describe -> A-W-E-S-O-M-E ! 

One day at a time -- this is enough . I'll never look back and 

grieve over the past , for it's gone . I'll live in the present , make 

it so beautiful that it will be worth remembering . 

Time to hit the pillow ! Goodnights !

Hopefully i could pull through tmr with all my pain !

My stomach hurts like a slut , my back aches like a bitch ! 

signingoff``

♥JCWS

Life tends to blur by way too fast

I have yet to feel the best .
First time in my life I felt myself being so paranoid , sensitive
and insecure . I'd never felt this way before and it affects me
so much that I couldn't control all my emotions . It's been
ruling me since then . All I do is to pretend everything is so
freaking perfect being that forever smiling happy girl .
At times that i'm so sick of it I broke down . FML .

我要的 ，你不懂 。
我想的 ，你不明白 。
我是谁 ，你不了解 。
有太多疑问 ，但是我不敢问 。
因为害怕知道 ，所以逃避 。

我怀念的是他能给的安全感 。
Because the assurance he gave , is what every girl searching for .

whatever !!!!!!!!!!!!! I only left with 2hours of sleep .
super tired but my heart and mind is over thinking .
That causes insomnia . fuck this shit .

要提醒自己多少次 ，不要抓的那么紧 ，才会看开 ？
这次的痛 ，好像会比上次的还要痛 。

The guilt in me is increasing daily .


signingoff``
♥JCWS

I'll stand up for what I believe in , even if it means standing alone !

Felt super vexed in heart the whole day ,
so keep feel like going jogging ! And thank god ,
for the weather . It's stop raining and off I went !
Had a solid 1hour runnnnnnnnnnn and the satisfaction
after that jog was seriously indescribable !
Nothing much actually . Everything is going well .
Just that I've been thinking too much .
Insecurity ruins everything but i'm still trying hard to
think positive .

Heading to bed ! Best escape !
I wanna officially on diet again because everytime I
look into the mirror , I felt like an ugly fat bitch !
And saying about food , IM HUNGRY NOW ! )':

signingoff``
♥JCWS